How to See the World: Hunger
by Paula J. Lambert
When I first moved from Massachusetts to Indiana
I didn’t know how to see the flat black fields stretching
all around me as anything but oceans of mud. It took
time to understand the lay of that land, its change
of season, and that newly turned soil as black as that
held every promise of richness, newness, nourishment,
food. I began to see it wasn’t quite flat, that not all the
soil was so dark, that every rise or mounding, every
possible shade of brown was a different kind of soil,
meant for a different kind of planting. But while it was
still new to me, when I felt the first pangs of homesick,
a wanting that has never left, I sat down on the edge of
one of those fields next to the man I knew by now I was
destined to marry (still blessedly ignorant I was destined,
too, to divorce him) and gestured hopelessly across the
landscape. There’s nothing to see here. Nothing to look at.
The bleakness of what stretched around us matched
only the bleakness of what was inside. To his credit, he
didn’t lash out or take my observation as insult. He said
one of the few things I ever thought wise or helpful.
I’ve been to the mountains, he said, and I also thought there
was nothing to see. Those mountains were always in the way.
PHOTO: Cornfield and the Milky Way, Greenfield, Indiana. Photo by Eric Fleming on Unsplash.
NOTE FROM THE PHOTOGRAPHER: When I stayed at a working farm outside of Indianapolis, I knew I wanted to take photos of the Milky Way while I was there. I was hoping for a clear sky but it was pretty cloudy this night, I took this shot during a short break in the clouds. I had the cornfield in my head before I took this shot because I thought it was a great representation of rural Indiana.
NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR: This poem is one of four “How to See the World” poems in a collection by the same title, published in September 2020 by Bottom Dog Press as part of their Harmony Series. “How to See the World: Hunger” is the first of the four, the rest are “Thirst,” “Fire,” and finally, “Breath.” They are meant to correspond with the elements of Earth, Water, Fire, Air. The full collection was written in the spring and early summer of 2020 when we first self-quarantined and then stayed put. The poems were largely a sort of “how to get through the day” meditative response to the pandemic, though, as kindly written by Rose M. Smith in one of the book’s blurbs, they are about much more: how interconnected we all are while teetering at the brink of change… “How to See the World: Hunger” was nominated for a Pushcart Prize.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Paula J. Lambert of Columbus, Ohio, has authored several collections of poetry including How to See the World (Bottom Dog Press 2020). Recipient of two Ohio Arts Council Individual Excellence Awards and two Greater Columbus Arts Council Resource Grants, she has twice been in residence at Virginia Center for Creative Arts. She owns Full/Crescent Press, a small publisher of poetry books and broadsides through which she has founded and supported numerous public readings and festivals that support the intersection of poetry and science. Learn more at paulajlambert.com. Visit her on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.